gasping for breath

I feel weaker and weaker by the moment. The force is leaving me. I am drifting towards the dark side.

Listening to Bohemian Rhapshody now. " nothing really matters, anyone can see, nothing really matters to me....."

look, not trample

I hate it when preconceived ideas are imposed on me. I hate it when there is a slope on the site, we are expected to "build along the contours". I hate it when I am expected to do something that is "logical" and implicitly correct. I hate it when my own convictions are ignored.I hate to be compelled to do something.

Why must a building be physically built into nature to interact with it? Why must a big site be fully colonized? Why is it not enough for a person to appreciate nature by looking into it? Why can't I experience nature as a nice painting and not trampleon it like an artificial playground? Why am I discouraged from not infringing the existing nature? Why must I destroy the environment to create something that is seemingly harmonious with the environment? I find this extremely contradictory and perverse, as shallow as a corinthian column at Bukit Timah.

Is it not nicer to look at a flower than to step on it?

Maybe it is the innate nature for humans to destroy.

Architecture education in Singapore is becoming almost prescriptive. To use a nature site fully is to create an "organic" sprawl. A geometric box is only regarded as a poor respond to the site. Deviance will only be met by snide remarks and shitty grades. Ideas are squashed because they decide that it doesn't work, without trying to see the new possibilities. Singapore will never have a Pritzker Prize winner (perhaps they will buy one next time).

They want everything, yet they don't really know what they want.

I am an architecture proleteriat.

why here....? why not there.....?

Why must everything have a meaning? Why must everything be justified? Architecture is being over-intellecturized. The subjective human input is being marginalized. Unjustified and irrational ideas are critcized as shallow and arbituary (or a wide variety of other adjectives). However, while being deprived of using our own subjective responses, we are constantly being bombarded with subjective criticism and input. The refusal to accept the external input (both good and bad) usually results in a violent outlash which renders the final project a worthless piece of junk.

I am an architecture proleteriat.

crit in 6 days....